Untouched

I touched his tears rolling in his cheeks and I felt its warmth, I look in his eyes then I felt the definite pain. Pain not caused by any other hurtful reasons but with a single fact and that is, we can never have the word “us”. The memory is still fresh as bleeding wounds from that night of June until the moment you read this. A day that remarked the first and last span of minutes I fell and fail in love.  It is really true that no matter how you’ve worked hard for things it will all fall to the same unexpected dead end. They say that the best way to murder someone is by telling them you love them and never talk to them anymore. I’ll bet it’s true.

Recently, I was being murdered. Someone told me they love me and promised me he’ll never change but at this moment, I no longer hear his voice anymore. Not even a word I heard from him, not even a glimpse. I couldn’t imagine how I’m still affected of him avoiding me at his best. I never understand why I’m hurt for that. Maybe I was hurt because of him stepping off my pride.

Things were bound to happen as they are destined to be included in the plan of your life. You see, every moment you breathe gives you another chance to do something that can step you up from your position today. We all have that chance to be hurt, but to get going shatters the source of negativity. For that we are encouraged to move on and have life we always ought to.

Untold Plea

I saw you from the distance.

It wasn’t clear, it only lasted a second.

I look around for I want to hold you

I couldn’t just see your face

Now I feel how everything is now a waste.

Perhaps fate don’t want us to meet again

We being in the same street is pain.

Maybe, you just don’t want to see me.

I’m not ready to face you.

Now, I don’t even want to see you.

Thousands of thoughts are in my mind,

It’s running every minute and it hurts every time.

We were now as cold as ice,

We never see each other, you’re not being nice

You never text me anymore

You wanted everything to be gone for sure.

But I would love to remain in this coldness, why? 

Because I know it will freeze my feelings

Until it dies, never grows anymore

Like an old dumb closed store

It won’t be able to hurt me any longer.

I’m chasing my hopes for this very season

Praying you’ll give me your best reason

Of why you have to comfort me a lie

For you to leave me from behind

But just tell me, you’ve change your mind.

Romance’s not mine

I decided to take path to the market, alone. I was profoundly bothered of being alone inside my room, silence could’ve killed me. Along the ride I think of many things. I think of my projects, assignments, service, my parents, my friends, my songs, the messages and memories within seconds. I think of him. A “He” I don’t really know, someone I just don’t mind to meet as my studies goes. He’s in my dream but still I couldn’t recognize him. I know so much about his life however I have to admit- I created them. After I fetched my senses back to life, I demanded the driver of the vehicle to stop to where I pointed- I wasn’t in the mood to talk. Hurriedly we drove in, I saw a sort of a friend. Then the word “Hi!” just come out like I wasn’t expected to vomit in a travel and not noticing my hands eagerly waving towards him. I never saw his response. The motor stopped and I dropped quickly, I was already on my way to him.  I was shy but I hid it perfectly with my smile, then away I just asked him. “You must treat me something today!” I joyfully requested. Since the day we met in youth gatherings he always asks me to treat him, but I did the reciprocal move. Whenever he asks I did the same thing. Just as timing so ideal I asked him in delight then I never expected he would grant it.

For the first time, we talked so much about school as we are on our way to the restaurant. There so much to topic about and I never notice that he’s already got us a good spot to settle. After we ordered, we ate. The laughter was bursting and there is so much reminders running through and fro in my head. I never minded them and the talk goes on. I was feeling easy then, I was happy and filled. Filled not just on the food but with hopes, hope not beyond of what others may think but a hope that someday my “He” would be like him. He shares a lot of what has happened in his day, he imparted his insights and frankly tells me that I’m an optimistic one. The moment fed me so much that he is forced to have the walk way back to home. I waited him to go off before I buy my things in the marketplace. However, when I was enjoying the feeling of gratefulness of having good time with him but suddenly a scene strikes a chord in the air. I remember he said, “I have someone whom I really admire, I wanted to talk with her but I can’t I’ll just wait for her maybe in the right time with a right me”. All time I was setting my highest hopes but it doesn’t make sense anymore.

I halted- I diverted my attention to my intentions of going to that place. I bought some rice grains, ordered some eggs and drove off the highway. I wasn’t thinking of anything this time my way home. I was emptied by the fact that I’m very desperate when it comes on anticipating that I could have a good relationship. I never doubted myself that I would really have that good guy someday in between but here I am meeting guys so good to be true but so bad of me I couldn’t ever have one of them. Dreams were just glazed to taste them so sweet causing me to exercise an assumption. I was forced to see that something’s going good within the bounds of the accompaniment, if assuming is a crime I would already be in jail. I’m behind those cold bars of hopelessness. I feign every friendly response though deep inside it means so much to me even how nonsense they were. How could I be so outstanding actress, I’m on the red carpet to Oscars for sure seeing myself talking like a jerk to my beautiful nightmare. It drags me down but I have to control myself and let the flow circulate like a blood. Just the hardest part is I am trying to make myself believe that the guy is not up to something with me, he just likes a talk. I was screaming inside because gladly I could consider having a better time with someone I’d love to. Now, what? We’ve just talk about the girl she’s up to and that sliced my nerves! Sometimes it’s better off your own shoe making drama than sticking around to those things that might only bring you down. I mean I just have to keep it a secret between me and myself.

Things might have taught us that Love must never come from any of these situations but must sprout out in the right time with the right place and with the right better person as anyone would expect you to deserve. Perhaps it must mean not to work out with me this time. It was meant an agony to be felt not meant to torment it myself. Hopeless little feelings might pinch a swelling hurt but I believed it always heals in the due process of time. It will lead you to being learned enough to let things unfolds your love story. I realized that not getting what you so much desire is a step closer in reaching thing you deserve. It keeps you away from a devastated damage where healing it might need more than time. I know this doesn't make any of your concern but we all get through the same plot. By all this time, I am affirmed that a puppy love doesn't exist, because Love has never been an animal but a saving gift. It was always that kind of love that everyone at in diverse ages feels, it was just way too wrong to feel and manipulate it in a rush. Someone has got to wait for healthier fits of things. Yes, I maybe have bunch of boyfriends, I could talk and have a date alike but I’m telling you the romance’s not mine, it’s for the other girls who’s their planning to complete their future in time. 

Happiness in Simplicity

The picture I made through Cs6; inspired of God's blessing.

Happiness is not in your present possessions nor be found in some wondrous places, but it is living always within us and how we see it makes it shines to others. They are noticed in our most humble living and purest intentions to anyone. Making GOD as the center of your life really teaches you how to love every little value here on earth. Even your darkest sorrows can turn to be your greatest light and strength of your journey if you just trust in his plans. You may not have the riches in the world nor any pleasures of it, just always remember that the genuine happiness is you who is grateful  of what GOD has handed. It dwells in your purest happy willing heart, ready to offer service to God through living the mission and inspiring other people. 

Take Some Sense

Guys like making you feel special and happy then says nothing at all Exists!
Leaving every girls hanging however, the value doesn't flow there. It is how you are thankful to God that he had blessed you with someone whom he uses to make you feel loved, special and true. Two thumbs up to God !

Valuing True Life

Isang Kwento ng Buhay at Pag-Asa

Written By: Daisy Ann Nalla; Sheryl Alinsub; Jamiela V. Valcurza

Characters: 

Nalla-Narrator

Nuevo-Conching(MAMA)

Rebortera-Teacher

Muring-Armand(PAPA)

Sabanal-bestfriend of Jackie

Latiban-Imilda(panganay na anak)

Tecson-Bunso(Riza)

Lucas- Friend 1

Jam- Friend2

Alinsub- Friend3

NARRATOR; Magandang hapon sa inyong lahat. Ngayong hapon matutunghayan natin ang kuwento ng isang pamilyang  sinubok ang katatagan sa buhay. Ang kuwentong ito ay magpapaantig sa ating mga puso at magpapamulat sa atin sa kahalagahan ng pagpapahalaga ng ating buhay.

MICHELLE: (Napansin ang sinsing sa kamay ni Jackie) Hoy Conching! Ano yan, patingin nga! Huy, anong ibig sabihin niyan ha?

CONCHING: eh, kasi (NAHIHIYA) Armando and I are getting married!

MICHELLE: what? OH MY G

(nAGSIGAWAN ANG DALAWA)

NARRATOR: Tandang-tanda ko pa kung gaano ako kasaya nang ikakasal kami ni Armando. Sa mga panahong iyon ay puno pa kami ng pagmamahalan . Sa simula ay maayos naman kami. Masaya kami lalo nang dumating ang dalawa naming anak ngunit kalaunan nagbago si Armando at dito na nagsimula ang pagsubok sa aming buhay.

(NASA HAPAG KAINAN)

Riza: Nay nay tinngnan niyo ang galing galing ko naka 100 ako sa exam namin kanina.

C: WOW! Ang galing naman ng anak ko manang-mana talaga sa akin. O ikaw ate? Ano kumusta ang school?

IMIlda: HAHA! Hindi yata ako papatalo naka perfect score  din kaya ako kanina sa long test namin.

C: WOW! Ang galing talaga ng mga anak ko. Ang suwerte ko talaga sa inyo, .O cge kumain na tayo. Nasaan nakaya ang tatay niyo?

(NASASARAPAN ANG MGA ANAK)

ARMANDO: (LASING) Conching!!! Anong ula..a..a..m Ha?

C: Armando(NILAPITAN C ARMANDO AT PABULONG NA SINAbi: ) Armando ano ka bat bakit lasing ka ha? Ano bang nangyayari sayo? MAT Problema ka ba? Bat ba lasing ka? Ano ba mahiya ka naman sa mga anak mo.

A: Tumigil ka nga! At pakainin mo na lang ako !(Nangahadlok ang mga bata)

Riza; Nay! Nagaaway po ba kayo ni tatay?

C: Wala anak, cge kumain lang kayo ng marami.

NARRATOR: Hindi ko alam kung bakit ngunit naging madaals na ang paguwi ni Armando ng lasing at madalas na rin ang pagiging maintin ang kanyang ulo.

Armando: Hoy Conching! Ano naman tong pagkain natin. Letseng buhay to Walas ka ba talgang alam lutuin.

C: Armando tumigil ka nga! Sobra ka na! Hinid ka na nahiya sa mga anak mo?! Kung gusto mo ng masarap na ulam ay  ibigay mo ang buo mong suweldo sa akin. Ano ba naman magtrabaho ka nga ng maayos!!!

Armando: Ano ? hA? Nagtitigasan ka na ngayon? Sinasagot mo na ako?  Ha?

(BUGBUGA at iyakan)

NARRATOR: Dalidaling umalis sa bahay c Conshing at nilapitan ang matalik niyang kaibigang c MIChelle.

Michelle: Ano ba naman yan c armando! Sobra na yan! Hiwalayan mo na siya tingnan mo nga kung anong ginawa niya sayo1 HAYOP na lalake.

C: Michelle, siguro nagawa niya lang yun dahil lasing siya. Ayokong iwanan ang asaaw ko dahil sa nagkamali lang siya ng isang beses.

Michelle: Ano isang beses? Sabi mo nga diba? Madalas na ang pambubugbog niya sayo? Alam mk bang maaapektuhan ang mga bata niyan? Naku Conching mabuti pat ipagpatuloy mo ang pagiging titser mo at iwanan mo ang asaw mo.,!!

NARRATOR: Bumalik ako sa bahay .Alang-alang sa mga anak namin ni Aarmando. OO totoo ang sabi ni Michelle iniwanana ko ang pagiging titser para lang sa asawa ko. Hindi ko na lang namamalayan ang dati naming masayang pamilya ay unit-untin ng nagbabago.

(Party PARTY sia nurin , lucas, jam, ug sheryl)

Lucas; o iinom mo na lang yang problema mo sa pamilya niyo! Hayaan mo ng mga mgaulang mo. Ganon talaga WALANG HAPPY ENDING, pero ang INUMAN WALANG ENDING!!! Whooooo! O inumin mo nato IMILDA!

Nur-in: e, tama batong ginagawa natin Jam?

Jam: Hindi ko alam Imilda pero hayaan muna sabi naman nila mawawala raw ang problema mo pag iinom mo yan.

Nurin: pero sabi ng nanay nakakasamadaw ang paginom sa katawan.

Sheryl” Ano ba Imilda wag ka ngang KJ ,, kung nakasasama ang alak e di sana patay na sana ako ngayon. Come on les just have fun.!!! WHOOOOO!

NARRATOR: Dahil sa problema, tuluyang nagbago ang mga anak nina Conching at Armando . Ang dating panganay na mabait at masipag sa pag-aaral ay ngayoy napariwara na na , natuto ng uminom, naninigarilyo at hindi na pumapasok sa klase.

IMILDA: (she walks tiptoed )

CONCHING: Bakit ngayon ka lang Anak?

IMILDA: MA?!(pagulat na sinabi)

Conching: Saan ka galing?

Imilda: Dun, lang sa tabi-tabi( sinagot ng parude at patalikod)

Conching:Teka!, nga anak sandali lang nga...

Imilda: Ano!?

Conching: Ano bang nagyayari sayo? Akalo ma ba hindi ko lama na gabi-gabing kang patakas na lumalabas at late ka ng umuwi?!!!

Imilda: Wag nga kayong makialam.. Buhay ko to and besides problema ko to. Bat di niyo na lang tulungan ang sarili niyo . Anong klaseng pamilya to!

NARRATOR: Kinabukasan, dali-daling pumunta sa eskwelahan ni Riza si conchin dahil napaaway raw ito sa kanyang kaklase.

Teri: Naku, MRs. Cepeda , Nakipag-away ang anak mo sa kaklase niya. Sabihin niyo may problema ba kayo? Sa pagkakaalam ko matalinong bata si Riza, mabait at masayahin ngayon ko lang siya nakita ng ganyan, Baka naman me problema kayo at naapektuhan na ang bata.

Conching: Pasensya na pa kayo Maan , May problema nga ho kami sa bahay. Hayaan niyo pagsasabihan ko po itong anak ko.

Teri: Mrs. Cepeda ang payo ko lang. Kung may problema man at kaya pang ayusin , ayusin niyo na ng mas maaga pa kaysa umabot pa sa puntong hindi na kayang ayusin.

Conching: Maraming salamat po Maam. Alis na po kami.

(habang naglalakad)

Riza: Nay! Ayoko na pong umuwi sa bahay. Natatakot po ako kay itay at baka bugbugin na naman po kayo at magamok nanaman siya.

(Napatigil si Conshing)

C: Pasensya ka na anak. (naiiyak) pati ikaw nasasaktan at naapektuhan na rin..

Narrator:  Dahil sa impluwensya ng mga barkada at kaguluhan sa bahay nangyari ang hindi inaasahan nabuntis si Imilda.

Imilda: (nasa CR) (suka-suka affffect) Hindi ito maari ! Buntis ako?(parang nabaliw na isinabi) Anong gagawin ko?! (karakara pangita sa cellphone) at tinawagan si Sheryl)

Imilda: Hello!(umiiyak)

Sheryl: Hello besh, bat napatawag ka /? Ano kaba magmove ka nga kay Brian grabe hanggang ngayon iniiyakan  mo parin yun.?

Lucas: Oo nga, besh, move ka na.Go gewrl! (nagtawanan ang dalawa)

Jam: Ano ba kita nyo ng umiiyak yung tao! Ako na ngang kakausap sa kanay. Hello? Imi? Sabihin mo anong problema?

Imi: Buntis a ko Jam at hindi ko alam kung sinong ama!! (iyak ng malakas at nabitawan ang cp at napaluhod\0

Jam: Ano? Hello? Hello? Imi!!!!

I: Hindi ko matatanggap to. (adlib)(kinuha ang kutsilyo at tinititigan)

Kung lalaki ka rin lang naman at mararanasan mong buhay na nararanasan ko ngayon mas mabuti pang wag ka na langmabuhay. Patawad pero kailangan kitang iligtas (humagulgol)

(pagdayun saksak dumating si Armando at nabuksan ang pintuan)

Armando: IMILDA! (dali-daling pinigilan at kinuha ang kutislyo)

Magpapakamatay ka ba? Ha?

Imilda: OO

Armando: Ano? Nahihibang ka na bang bata ka? Bakit?

Imi: Itong pagkakamaling to, eto ang gusto kungmawala!!!

Armando: Ano? Buntis ka? (sinampal ang anak)Anong klase kang anak? Bibigyan mo ng kahihiyan nag anak nato.

Imi: ano? Anong klase akong naka? Ikaw, ano klase kang ama at asawa? Dahil sayo nawasak ang masaya nating pamilya tay. Dahil sayo kung bakit ako nagkaganito!Kung hindi ka lang nagbago Tay! Masaya pa sana tayo ngayon!!!!!!

Armando: (sinampal ulit ang anak)

Imi:( (galit na tinitigan ang itay at umiiyak)

Armando: Naka, anak, hindi ko sinsadya na saktan ka, i’m sorry, im s sorry...

Imi: bitawan mo ko itay bitawan mo ako

Jackie: Armando!!!! Ano bang nangyayari dito!! Bat may kutsilyo dito.

Imi: Nay buntis ho ako at gusto ko lang naman pung iligats ang anak ko na matikman ang pait ng bhay.Jackie: Ano?

Jackie: (nagwild)ikaw Armando!!! Ikaw ang may dahilan ng lahat ng to...

Riza: nay tay ate tama na ho huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu]

(tintangagap lang ni Armando ang mga sampal ng asawa niya)

Armando: pinigilan at niyaka si Jackie, hindi ko rin alam kung anong nagyayari sa akin Mahal, Ang alam ko lang ngayon ay hindi na ako masaya sa  nagawa ko. Pinagsisihan kko ang lahat kailan man ay hindi ko hinangad na mangyari ito lalo na sayo anak.

(NAGYAKAPAN ANG MAG_ANAK)

Narrator: Ang pamilya ang siyang pinakamahalgang bagay na mayroon ang isang tao. Kailan may hindi kayang tiisin ang isat isa. Dito makikita ang pagpapahalaga sa ating buhay. Hindi  kasiyahan ang bumubuo sa isang matibayna pamilya kundi sa kung papano nila ginagampanan at iniingatan ang isat isa. Pagpapatawad, pagmamahalan at pagkakaisa ang tunay na hakbang sa pagpapahalaga ng buhay.