A survivor's love

Not nearly Love

By: Jamiela V. Valcurza

Love necessarily needs distance.

Distance that means a space for once.

Once that would never be enough

Enough to make me happy and laugh.

Love grew unexpectedly.

Unexpectedly, expecting the unexpected.

Unexpected but I always assume

Assume that our hearts are in the same room.

When love was away, I wasn’t sure to stay.

Stay to wherever I stopped and watch you away.

Away from the very point I bravely say.

Say you’ll stay.

No one will ever understand the feeling.

Feeling that nobody has ever felt.

Felt like it was already wrong to hold.

Hold on to things that weren’t right

In the end you’ll just see you end up

Up to the oceans of doubts and fears

Fears that already conquered, now formed

Formed as an advice to whoever feels the same.

A Lover's Poem

“The way I’m Left Behind”

By: Ken Dexter C. Arandela

Wheels roll and doors closed

As I watch you leave from afar

I hear the silent screams of my heart

Screaming for you to stay with me

As you disappear in the horizon

My eyes were locked in

Locked in the position where you sat

Hoping that you would look at me back

The time I’ve spent with you

Moments that I’ll never forget

Things I’ve done that I’ll never regret

Stays in my mind

Reminding me of your love.

I scream in walloping silence, begging!

Begging for you to be with me

I’ll never stop asking you,

“Will you stay with me?”

Perhaps it’s wrong to say “Love me back”

Because love has nothing in return

I’ll never count the things I’ve done for you

It just states that I am impatient

You once said that love waits

That lovers have to be patient

And must have understanding

With boundless faith

It hurts to love when you’re away

That’s why distance is also part of love

My heart yells for you

But you had to go, to rest

When you’ll come back and see me

Please smile with all your might

Hug me with all your strength

For me to forget that I waited so long.

“My heart beats only for you”.

A friend in a Zone

Human is privileged to beg for love. We are capable of demanding it from other person. It has to be fair as we all thought of loving someone, it’s like a pact. “I will love you, please love me too.” We all wanted it to work that way because for us, it’s a torture- loving without you receiving some of it.

This means a world of our expectations, from the biggest to the slightest thing we could ask out from our fantasies that we want to make happen.

I have many friends, “boy” friends that usually and honestly consumes most of my time.  I fully know I have so much work to do but when the clock hits at 10 pm I decided to talk to them.

I heard more than stories not just of love but of life itself. I felt how hard love was it for those guys to bare. Craving for chances that only the future could tell if it’ll be worth. But as usual, they are hard to understand. There’s so many sides even I can’t comprehend even if I tried. They’ll say they wanted to move on, to forget, but you will see them begging for second chances. You will see them lurking to the ones they wanted to move off. You will hear them go over past they’re memories time to time a certain thing reminds them like food, place, favorites and etc. They’ll say they wanted to be free but it just means they wanted their girl to be free again from the new man who replaced them. They’ll say they’re happy but it means they would be happy if she comes back. They’ll say they wait but it means they badly needed an answer now.

I could never understand them. But I never understood myself more. Of why I keep on listening to their million time repeated stories and flashbacks. I never care if it began to hurt me and I could never understand myself so much. It scratches my heart and it aches when I saw them whole and happy in their past. Of how they find me at their darkest and broken hours and stopped to text me when they regain their previous relationship. Of how I was able to love someone who make me feel of love but has no deep meaning at all. And of how I wake up and face the new morning blessed and broken, no one has ever noticed even to those who demands of my time and ears, shoulders and tears.

I guess that’s how I worked with love. I wonder how I am able to sustain myself in my own knees when my heart breaks, of how I can still stand after a great fall and of how I was able to care again to some persons who insulted and never had done good for me. Despite of everything, I am glad I’ve helped them. It’s a great relief seeing them well in the side of others. At least I’ve done my part. I’d never had a relationship but I think this is my love life and that is to love life. A life that scoped a hard path, makes you endure and feel a profound victory in the end, a privilege other will never felt. 

Untouched

I touched his tears rolling in his cheeks and I felt its warmth, I look in his eyes then I felt the definite pain. Pain not caused by any other hurtful reasons but with a single fact and that is, we can never have the word “us”. The memory is still fresh as bleeding wounds from that night of June until the moment you read this. A day that remarked the first and last span of minutes I fell and fail in love.  It is really true that no matter how you’ve worked hard for things it will all fall to the same unexpected dead end. They say that the best way to murder someone is by telling them you love them and never talk to them anymore. I’ll bet it’s true.

Recently, I was being murdered. Someone told me they love me and promised me he’ll never change but at this moment, I no longer hear his voice anymore. Not even a word I heard from him, not even a glimpse. I couldn’t imagine how I’m still affected of him avoiding me at his best. I never understand why I’m hurt for that. Maybe I was hurt because of him stepping off my pride.

Things were bound to happen as they are destined to be included in the plan of your life. You see, every moment you breathe gives you another chance to do something that can step you up from your position today. We all have that chance to be hurt, but to get going shatters the source of negativity. For that we are encouraged to move on and have life we always ought to.

Untold Plea

I saw you from the distance.

It wasn’t clear, it only lasted a second.

I look around for I want to hold you

I couldn’t just see your face

Now I feel how everything is now a waste.

Perhaps fate don’t want us to meet again

We being in the same street is pain.

Maybe, you just don’t want to see me.

I’m not ready to face you.

Now, I don’t even want to see you.

Thousands of thoughts are in my mind,

It’s running every minute and it hurts every time.

We were now as cold as ice,

We never see each other, you’re not being nice

You never text me anymore

You wanted everything to be gone for sure.

But I would love to remain in this coldness, why? 

Because I know it will freeze my feelings

Until it dies, never grows anymore

Like an old dumb closed store

It won’t be able to hurt me any longer.

I’m chasing my hopes for this very season

Praying you’ll give me your best reason

Of why you have to comfort me a lie

For you to leave me from behind

But just tell me, you’ve change your mind.

Romance’s not mine

I decided to take path to the market, alone. I was profoundly bothered of being alone inside my room, silence could’ve killed me. Along the ride I think of many things. I think of my projects, assignments, service, my parents, my friends, my songs, the messages and memories within seconds. I think of him. A “He” I don’t really know, someone I just don’t mind to meet as my studies goes. He’s in my dream but still I couldn’t recognize him. I know so much about his life however I have to admit- I created them. After I fetched my senses back to life, I demanded the driver of the vehicle to stop to where I pointed- I wasn’t in the mood to talk. Hurriedly we drove in, I saw a sort of a friend. Then the word “Hi!” just come out like I wasn’t expected to vomit in a travel and not noticing my hands eagerly waving towards him. I never saw his response. The motor stopped and I dropped quickly, I was already on my way to him.  I was shy but I hid it perfectly with my smile, then away I just asked him. “You must treat me something today!” I joyfully requested. Since the day we met in youth gatherings he always asks me to treat him, but I did the reciprocal move. Whenever he asks I did the same thing. Just as timing so ideal I asked him in delight then I never expected he would grant it.

For the first time, we talked so much about school as we are on our way to the restaurant. There so much to topic about and I never notice that he’s already got us a good spot to settle. After we ordered, we ate. The laughter was bursting and there is so much reminders running through and fro in my head. I never minded them and the talk goes on. I was feeling easy then, I was happy and filled. Filled not just on the food but with hopes, hope not beyond of what others may think but a hope that someday my “He” would be like him. He shares a lot of what has happened in his day, he imparted his insights and frankly tells me that I’m an optimistic one. The moment fed me so much that he is forced to have the walk way back to home. I waited him to go off before I buy my things in the marketplace. However, when I was enjoying the feeling of gratefulness of having good time with him but suddenly a scene strikes a chord in the air. I remember he said, “I have someone whom I really admire, I wanted to talk with her but I can’t I’ll just wait for her maybe in the right time with a right me”. All time I was setting my highest hopes but it doesn’t make sense anymore.

I halted- I diverted my attention to my intentions of going to that place. I bought some rice grains, ordered some eggs and drove off the highway. I wasn’t thinking of anything this time my way home. I was emptied by the fact that I’m very desperate when it comes on anticipating that I could have a good relationship. I never doubted myself that I would really have that good guy someday in between but here I am meeting guys so good to be true but so bad of me I couldn’t ever have one of them. Dreams were just glazed to taste them so sweet causing me to exercise an assumption. I was forced to see that something’s going good within the bounds of the accompaniment, if assuming is a crime I would already be in jail. I’m behind those cold bars of hopelessness. I feign every friendly response though deep inside it means so much to me even how nonsense they were. How could I be so outstanding actress, I’m on the red carpet to Oscars for sure seeing myself talking like a jerk to my beautiful nightmare. It drags me down but I have to control myself and let the flow circulate like a blood. Just the hardest part is I am trying to make myself believe that the guy is not up to something with me, he just likes a talk. I was screaming inside because gladly I could consider having a better time with someone I’d love to. Now, what? We’ve just talk about the girl she’s up to and that sliced my nerves! Sometimes it’s better off your own shoe making drama than sticking around to those things that might only bring you down. I mean I just have to keep it a secret between me and myself.

Things might have taught us that Love must never come from any of these situations but must sprout out in the right time with the right place and with the right better person as anyone would expect you to deserve. Perhaps it must mean not to work out with me this time. It was meant an agony to be felt not meant to torment it myself. Hopeless little feelings might pinch a swelling hurt but I believed it always heals in the due process of time. It will lead you to being learned enough to let things unfolds your love story. I realized that not getting what you so much desire is a step closer in reaching thing you deserve. It keeps you away from a devastated damage where healing it might need more than time. I know this doesn't make any of your concern but we all get through the same plot. By all this time, I am affirmed that a puppy love doesn't exist, because Love has never been an animal but a saving gift. It was always that kind of love that everyone at in diverse ages feels, it was just way too wrong to feel and manipulate it in a rush. Someone has got to wait for healthier fits of things. Yes, I maybe have bunch of boyfriends, I could talk and have a date alike but I’m telling you the romance’s not mine, it’s for the other girls who’s their planning to complete their future in time. 

Happiness in Simplicity

The picture I made through Cs6; inspired of God's blessing.

Happiness is not in your present possessions nor be found in some wondrous places, but it is living always within us and how we see it makes it shines to others. They are noticed in our most humble living and purest intentions to anyone. Making GOD as the center of your life really teaches you how to love every little value here on earth. Even your darkest sorrows can turn to be your greatest light and strength of your journey if you just trust in his plans. You may not have the riches in the world nor any pleasures of it, just always remember that the genuine happiness is you who is grateful  of what GOD has handed. It dwells in your purest happy willing heart, ready to offer service to God through living the mission and inspiring other people. 

Take Some Sense

Guys like making you feel special and happy then says nothing at all Exists!
Leaving every girls hanging however, the value doesn't flow there. It is how you are thankful to God that he had blessed you with someone whom he uses to make you feel loved, special and true. Two thumbs up to God !

Valuing True Life

Isang Kwento ng Buhay at Pag-Asa

Written By: Daisy Ann Nalla; Sheryl Alinsub; Jamiela V. Valcurza

Characters: 

Nalla-Narrator

Nuevo-Conching(MAMA)

Rebortera-Teacher

Muring-Armand(PAPA)

Sabanal-bestfriend of Jackie

Latiban-Imilda(panganay na anak)

Tecson-Bunso(Riza)

Lucas- Friend 1

Jam- Friend2

Alinsub- Friend3

NARRATOR; Magandang hapon sa inyong lahat. Ngayong hapon matutunghayan natin ang kuwento ng isang pamilyang  sinubok ang katatagan sa buhay. Ang kuwentong ito ay magpapaantig sa ating mga puso at magpapamulat sa atin sa kahalagahan ng pagpapahalaga ng ating buhay.

MICHELLE: (Napansin ang sinsing sa kamay ni Jackie) Hoy Conching! Ano yan, patingin nga! Huy, anong ibig sabihin niyan ha?

CONCHING: eh, kasi (NAHIHIYA) Armando and I are getting married!

MICHELLE: what? OH MY G

(nAGSIGAWAN ANG DALAWA)

NARRATOR: Tandang-tanda ko pa kung gaano ako kasaya nang ikakasal kami ni Armando. Sa mga panahong iyon ay puno pa kami ng pagmamahalan . Sa simula ay maayos naman kami. Masaya kami lalo nang dumating ang dalawa naming anak ngunit kalaunan nagbago si Armando at dito na nagsimula ang pagsubok sa aming buhay.

(NASA HAPAG KAINAN)

Riza: Nay nay tinngnan niyo ang galing galing ko naka 100 ako sa exam namin kanina.

C: WOW! Ang galing naman ng anak ko manang-mana talaga sa akin. O ikaw ate? Ano kumusta ang school?

IMIlda: HAHA! Hindi yata ako papatalo naka perfect score  din kaya ako kanina sa long test namin.

C: WOW! Ang galing talaga ng mga anak ko. Ang suwerte ko talaga sa inyo, .O cge kumain na tayo. Nasaan nakaya ang tatay niyo?

(NASASARAPAN ANG MGA ANAK)

ARMANDO: (LASING) Conching!!! Anong ula..a..a..m Ha?

C: Armando(NILAPITAN C ARMANDO AT PABULONG NA SINAbi: ) Armando ano ka bat bakit lasing ka ha? Ano bang nangyayari sayo? MAT Problema ka ba? Bat ba lasing ka? Ano ba mahiya ka naman sa mga anak mo.

A: Tumigil ka nga! At pakainin mo na lang ako !(Nangahadlok ang mga bata)

Riza; Nay! Nagaaway po ba kayo ni tatay?

C: Wala anak, cge kumain lang kayo ng marami.

NARRATOR: Hindi ko alam kung bakit ngunit naging madaals na ang paguwi ni Armando ng lasing at madalas na rin ang pagiging maintin ang kanyang ulo.

Armando: Hoy Conching! Ano naman tong pagkain natin. Letseng buhay to Walas ka ba talgang alam lutuin.

C: Armando tumigil ka nga! Sobra ka na! Hinid ka na nahiya sa mga anak mo?! Kung gusto mo ng masarap na ulam ay  ibigay mo ang buo mong suweldo sa akin. Ano ba naman magtrabaho ka nga ng maayos!!!

Armando: Ano ? hA? Nagtitigasan ka na ngayon? Sinasagot mo na ako?  Ha?

(BUGBUGA at iyakan)

NARRATOR: Dalidaling umalis sa bahay c Conshing at nilapitan ang matalik niyang kaibigang c MIChelle.

Michelle: Ano ba naman yan c armando! Sobra na yan! Hiwalayan mo na siya tingnan mo nga kung anong ginawa niya sayo1 HAYOP na lalake.

C: Michelle, siguro nagawa niya lang yun dahil lasing siya. Ayokong iwanan ang asaaw ko dahil sa nagkamali lang siya ng isang beses.

Michelle: Ano isang beses? Sabi mo nga diba? Madalas na ang pambubugbog niya sayo? Alam mk bang maaapektuhan ang mga bata niyan? Naku Conching mabuti pat ipagpatuloy mo ang pagiging titser mo at iwanan mo ang asaw mo.,!!

NARRATOR: Bumalik ako sa bahay .Alang-alang sa mga anak namin ni Aarmando. OO totoo ang sabi ni Michelle iniwanana ko ang pagiging titser para lang sa asawa ko. Hindi ko na lang namamalayan ang dati naming masayang pamilya ay unit-untin ng nagbabago.

(Party PARTY sia nurin , lucas, jam, ug sheryl)

Lucas; o iinom mo na lang yang problema mo sa pamilya niyo! Hayaan mo ng mga mgaulang mo. Ganon talaga WALANG HAPPY ENDING, pero ang INUMAN WALANG ENDING!!! Whooooo! O inumin mo nato IMILDA!

Nur-in: e, tama batong ginagawa natin Jam?

Jam: Hindi ko alam Imilda pero hayaan muna sabi naman nila mawawala raw ang problema mo pag iinom mo yan.

Nurin: pero sabi ng nanay nakakasamadaw ang paginom sa katawan.

Sheryl” Ano ba Imilda wag ka ngang KJ ,, kung nakasasama ang alak e di sana patay na sana ako ngayon. Come on les just have fun.!!! WHOOOOO!

NARRATOR: Dahil sa problema, tuluyang nagbago ang mga anak nina Conching at Armando . Ang dating panganay na mabait at masipag sa pag-aaral ay ngayoy napariwara na na , natuto ng uminom, naninigarilyo at hindi na pumapasok sa klase.

IMILDA: (she walks tiptoed )

CONCHING: Bakit ngayon ka lang Anak?

IMILDA: MA?!(pagulat na sinabi)

Conching: Saan ka galing?

Imilda: Dun, lang sa tabi-tabi( sinagot ng parude at patalikod)

Conching:Teka!, nga anak sandali lang nga...

Imilda: Ano!?

Conching: Ano bang nagyayari sayo? Akalo ma ba hindi ko lama na gabi-gabing kang patakas na lumalabas at late ka ng umuwi?!!!

Imilda: Wag nga kayong makialam.. Buhay ko to and besides problema ko to. Bat di niyo na lang tulungan ang sarili niyo . Anong klaseng pamilya to!

NARRATOR: Kinabukasan, dali-daling pumunta sa eskwelahan ni Riza si conchin dahil napaaway raw ito sa kanyang kaklase.

Teri: Naku, MRs. Cepeda , Nakipag-away ang anak mo sa kaklase niya. Sabihin niyo may problema ba kayo? Sa pagkakaalam ko matalinong bata si Riza, mabait at masayahin ngayon ko lang siya nakita ng ganyan, Baka naman me problema kayo at naapektuhan na ang bata.

Conching: Pasensya na pa kayo Maan , May problema nga ho kami sa bahay. Hayaan niyo pagsasabihan ko po itong anak ko.

Teri: Mrs. Cepeda ang payo ko lang. Kung may problema man at kaya pang ayusin , ayusin niyo na ng mas maaga pa kaysa umabot pa sa puntong hindi na kayang ayusin.

Conching: Maraming salamat po Maam. Alis na po kami.

(habang naglalakad)

Riza: Nay! Ayoko na pong umuwi sa bahay. Natatakot po ako kay itay at baka bugbugin na naman po kayo at magamok nanaman siya.

(Napatigil si Conshing)

C: Pasensya ka na anak. (naiiyak) pati ikaw nasasaktan at naapektuhan na rin..

Narrator:  Dahil sa impluwensya ng mga barkada at kaguluhan sa bahay nangyari ang hindi inaasahan nabuntis si Imilda.

Imilda: (nasa CR) (suka-suka affffect) Hindi ito maari ! Buntis ako?(parang nabaliw na isinabi) Anong gagawin ko?! (karakara pangita sa cellphone) at tinawagan si Sheryl)

Imilda: Hello!(umiiyak)

Sheryl: Hello besh, bat napatawag ka /? Ano kaba magmove ka nga kay Brian grabe hanggang ngayon iniiyakan  mo parin yun.?

Lucas: Oo nga, besh, move ka na.Go gewrl! (nagtawanan ang dalawa)

Jam: Ano ba kita nyo ng umiiyak yung tao! Ako na ngang kakausap sa kanay. Hello? Imi? Sabihin mo anong problema?

Imi: Buntis a ko Jam at hindi ko alam kung sinong ama!! (iyak ng malakas at nabitawan ang cp at napaluhod\0

Jam: Ano? Hello? Hello? Imi!!!!

I: Hindi ko matatanggap to. (adlib)(kinuha ang kutsilyo at tinititigan)

Kung lalaki ka rin lang naman at mararanasan mong buhay na nararanasan ko ngayon mas mabuti pang wag ka na langmabuhay. Patawad pero kailangan kitang iligtas (humagulgol)

(pagdayun saksak dumating si Armando at nabuksan ang pintuan)

Armando: IMILDA! (dali-daling pinigilan at kinuha ang kutislyo)

Magpapakamatay ka ba? Ha?

Imilda: OO

Armando: Ano? Nahihibang ka na bang bata ka? Bakit?

Imi: Itong pagkakamaling to, eto ang gusto kungmawala!!!

Armando: Ano? Buntis ka? (sinampal ang anak)Anong klase kang anak? Bibigyan mo ng kahihiyan nag anak nato.

Imi: ano? Anong klase akong naka? Ikaw, ano klase kang ama at asawa? Dahil sayo nawasak ang masaya nating pamilya tay. Dahil sayo kung bakit ako nagkaganito!Kung hindi ka lang nagbago Tay! Masaya pa sana tayo ngayon!!!!!!

Armando: (sinampal ulit ang anak)

Imi:( (galit na tinitigan ang itay at umiiyak)

Armando: Naka, anak, hindi ko sinsadya na saktan ka, i’m sorry, im s sorry...

Imi: bitawan mo ko itay bitawan mo ako

Jackie: Armando!!!! Ano bang nangyayari dito!! Bat may kutsilyo dito.

Imi: Nay buntis ho ako at gusto ko lang naman pung iligats ang anak ko na matikman ang pait ng bhay.Jackie: Ano?

Jackie: (nagwild)ikaw Armando!!! Ikaw ang may dahilan ng lahat ng to...

Riza: nay tay ate tama na ho huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu]

(tintangagap lang ni Armando ang mga sampal ng asawa niya)

Armando: pinigilan at niyaka si Jackie, hindi ko rin alam kung anong nagyayari sa akin Mahal, Ang alam ko lang ngayon ay hindi na ako masaya sa  nagawa ko. Pinagsisihan kko ang lahat kailan man ay hindi ko hinangad na mangyari ito lalo na sayo anak.

(NAGYAKAPAN ANG MAG_ANAK)

Narrator: Ang pamilya ang siyang pinakamahalgang bagay na mayroon ang isang tao. Kailan may hindi kayang tiisin ang isat isa. Dito makikita ang pagpapahalaga sa ating buhay. Hindi  kasiyahan ang bumubuo sa isang matibayna pamilya kundi sa kung papano nila ginagampanan at iniingatan ang isat isa. Pagpapatawad, pagmamahalan at pagkakaisa ang tunay na hakbang sa pagpapahalaga ng buhay.

Real talk

There were just things that aren't for you even if you wanted them the most. A sad reality that never seemed to turn out but somehow bought us a right way of keeping ourselves and learn to wait.

Wait !

Everyone is designed to love and be loved. Each and every human consecrates a special feeling to a person where whom he/she felt so much out of it. Its extraordinary, never been like a wasted entity. That love encompasses all things you know, all against the world that you're ready to give it all out from you. Its so sweet, it's  an exotic gift. You could not contain how great love is. It becomes more special when you receive such thing only from the person you've waited for so long.

We are all aware of waiting, but not all of us are capable of doing it. Things as we may see it coming immediately attracts us not knowing if that's it we needed for. We tend to invite these so called opportunities, not exactly identifying what kind it was. We want an instant. Let's state for example, you were cooking your rice, as you checked it a few minutes, you saw it like its already cooked. You seem to think that you're waiting too long for it though you've just put it on a stove minutes ago. You could not help watch a hot-cooked rice, could you? Especially when you're hungry, right? Then you just took it out and put them on your plate, then ate. Of course it hurts, its hot then. Its not cooked that much, or anything, it just gives a rice with no justice, it's not totally cooked hence it doesn't even gives you're satisfaction you want out of hungriness. That's how we neglect the beauty of waiting. Waiting never gives an assurance, but what it offers you is a beautiful reward who takes risks in doing it.


In waiting for love doesn't excludes this. Never hurry for love, if your love does, then its not love. For love is patient more than we know, more than its defined in the bible. For all of the hopeless out there, I just want to shake you up and remind you that there is always a somebody out there. There will always be someone that could turn your world around, and the more you wait for it, the greater the sweetness it will do along. Never rush things that ought to come so slow. They really have the purpose to delay their arrival, it is to let you have more time to be ready so that you would not waste them as it comes. So cheer up! Live life with every exciting second. Enjoy and savor the present .



  

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Anyone of us is in nature to worry. We worry about, money, relationships, studies, work, service and even our faith. We tend to always think of them all of the time that we wouldn't notice ourselves going in the wrong way. We look not on how to solve problems but we search for places and any ways to escape them.  When you are student with high hopes. You have everything to worry what the world has to offer. They start with smaller things, then they grow unexpectedly. From dreadful assignments, soul-tiring projects, lethal exams, and unending quizzes, you cry with it every time you wouldn't have the strength to fight. Times were there that you couldn't contain the anger of having no money, then you started to hate it. You hate why money has to be one of the world's necessity. You become frustrated with the world, and you ended up staring the clock. Staying so still even even there's lot of works awaits you.

It's better late than never, they say. So you react to things lately as you see what number are the clock hands are pointing into. You rush things to happen, you expect immediate answered prayers and all where in the latter time you end up blaming GOD for not responding to you. How ironic isn't it? Do you really need to blame him after all? Here we are always, humans who have the great big guts to put back all the distress to GOD.  Don't you even realize how blessed you are that you don't have to worry and be troubled? You have no idea of it, do you? How could you believe me saying like this? Would you think I'm too worry free that I could easily tell things?

Think the way how make it. You might offend a GOD.

CORNERSTONE

CORNERSTONE is a program of Youth for Christ together with ADMU and other sponsors aiming to train students in their values formation. I'm glad to be a part of this program.

When the world needs goodness, GOD called me. How good is it to be chosen as his servant. You'll find really the real infinite joy  in service to him. It's the direst privilege  I've ever receive in my entire life, its to evangelize youths. Little by little I know I'm doing things in the glory of his name. For this may GOD be praised.

For I am greatly loved by GOD, I continue fighting against the struggles that came to crush me in. I believe in his word and obey it, for he said; Colossians1:11-12 " May you be made strong with all of the strength that comes from his heart,so that you may be able to endure everything in patience". Does says the Lord, Thanks be to GOD.

 

This  is my now !!!

                                                            Though in pain, yet still smiling :))

                                                              My college classmates :))
                                             It's during our final performance in humanities 1

Bitter - sweetest !

  The moment I step in this unrevealed secrecy of temptation and danger world, I began to loose up my self abruptly yet I don't have an idea of what's up messing around me. It seems to drive me insane looking like a fool finding my self in a spot forgetting of what I have instilled in my brain during those high school days. Being around with such brilliant persons have grasps my self down, well that's the thing I don't intend to do so. Moreover, living alone for the first time gets me tangled. Lately, I notice something of it behind, I got my confidence lost. I think I wander of a plain sketch of my life's plan - I've lost the exact words! Its just I don't really get it right, everything seems so wrong in my first start. I'm trying to get up, I'm trying to elude the idea of giving up. Its the feeling like I've been making always a mess, which I always ended up with frustrations, guilt of a shy, and to feel devastated. Who would have thought that this will be worst. One time, I turned back to our town just to try catching up the spirit of home. It was that unusual for I have been a sort of happy yet filled with the motivation thing. Suddenly, my 12 yr. old friend told me something thus, that "something" accounts again to another issue which I am involved. It says that, one of my old time partner of my past organization in high school don't appreciate my presence of those times. Of course, I just laugh at it. Actually, that thing didn't move me even just  an inch but, that bought up a dire memo which moves me apparently. It reminds of something awful. The one of a kind struggle in terms of social discrimination. I moved on!

So much of that pains, I began to hold up a second. It was just to realize one thing I should think of inspite of these life thorns as I may depicted. Can you see that image up there? ( Jeremiah 29:11 ) That slaps me gently to the single truth of what  life was all about. It was about this time to hold on to his words for I know he have everything under control. Bluntly, I want to cry while I'm writing this but I can't for I'm with the crowd. Perhaps it might be a tears of joy for me because I can see to my self that I'm still blessed and that God counts me to live in him-a life with pouring graces. In his own magical ways, I began recognizing his will and most especially his TENDER LOVE. A kind of love that nothing could ever surpass, a love that is true and we knew would lasts. These days had been cruel to me, it had been so sick that it puts me in definite vain. Anyways, GOD got my back and together with my diligence, patience and of hope I would make it up to the finals. I guess I might say, " BELIEVE THAT GOD BELIEVES IN ME".

Snail Run via ADOBE Photoshop Cs3

Can a snail run? Can a snail crawl so fast?

It could be possible here in 
Photoshop Cs3 animated gif  tutorials . .

Here are some few steps to do an animated gif image:

1.  After you have open your Photoshop Cs3 program in your PC, press both ctrl + N keys just on the image below.

                                                     ( you may choose your own size)

2. Then if you have this size 980x90 it will be like this...

3. Choose your own shape at the custom shape tool. As for our snail, we choose the snail.

4.After it, draw the shape and make a color of it.

5. Next, to make it run or move just look and click the workspace button and click the video and film.

6. After that, you can saw this button and right way you can add frames by clicking the paper shaped like button which can duplicate your frame successively. Making this step requires you to change the position of the object moving forward in every frame.

 
7. Then you can set the time in seconds of each and every frame.

8. In order to be set it as an animated gif, go to file button and hit the save for web and devices.

There you have it! You have your snail running...

Sky Life

                     

The best piece of Life

Being a student is a tough but an enjoyable state of a person. This helps us to gather several of information about life. It helped us to collect an experience which reminds us how happy life is. This is also the first step on our way to triumph. As a student, we may encounter difficulties, trials, and nightmares as well but were proud to overcome them. 

We can be at our best as a student if we try harder than we can. Most of us failed in their student fields for the reason that none of them divides his/her time well, as fair as to manage it.Its just about time management guys. But I admit, even myself won't find it so easy to attain. Despite the difficulty, let us strive to learn in the right allocation of time for studies, projects, and life enrichment. Spend time for household chores, family recreation, personal relaxation and lastly to God's good relation. Learn to have all that moments by spending time equally to each of them through self-discipline and accurate mind setting. We can be a successful student if we just let our senses work in every seconds of time without wasting it. For every time cannot be restored once it is gone, as the saying goes, "TIME is GOLD". 

 Its not just working and studying hard all the time that you don't find yourself happy while doing it. being a fruitful student does not just evolve in gaining recognitions,honors, and outstanding certificates and plaques as but it is to have a good academic status, firm and happy student life also strong spiritual background. I further add, that having GOD in the center most part of our journey is the best thing that a certain youth must gain. For the purpose of a student is not just to reach ones goals but to enrich his/her special gifts that our Mighty GOD gave us, share it for the glory of GOD and to attain austerity in life.

                              My image in text product !!! which I learned exclusively on ICT!!!!